may not be on for a while. family issues. bad ones. i’m not feeling too good.
I’m like 80% sure that the people who romanticize snow are the people who don’t have to live in places that get over half an inch of it.
Isn’t it funny how aph Japan was introduced as this cunning mysterious and loner character but turns out he’s one of the biggest cutest dorks out there
Type 1: The Reformer (Principled, Self-controlled, and Perfectionistic)
Basic Fear: To be corrupt/evil and defective
Basic Desire: To be good, to have integrity and be balanced
Type 2: The Helper (Demonstrative, Generous, People-pleasing and Possessive)
Basic Fear: Of being unwanted and…
every time i see those freshman advice posts it always makes me p upset bc. that advice is useless when u have any kind of anxiety or depressive disorder. and more often than not i always see a common theme. “don’t be annoying.” like lmao sorry if having the confidence to be myself is annoying to some random upperclassman that i will likely never talk to ever.
you want some real advice freshmen???? be yourself. do the best you can do. if a fucking C is all you can give in a class that’s fantastic and i’m proud that you’re trying so damn hard. all i keep seeing are posts like “get As freshmen!!!!!! anything lower will hurt you later on” like. you don’t think we fucking know that already??? all of my friends were constantly stressed to shit about getting As. i remember comforting a sobbing classmate (whom i had never even talked to before) after she got a C on her first geometry test. my parents always told me to just do the very best i could. if a C is all i got then my parents would still be proud of me. the people that really matter in your life will applaud you for your hard work and offer help to you so maybe you can get even better.
you wanna wear fandom/anime merch??? go right ahead. who fucking cares if some random senior thinks it’s silly? they don’t know you, they don’t matter. you are a vegan and only will eat the salad at lunch???? that’s great!!! don’t let anyone try to dictate what you fucking eat. it’s just food. if they really don’t have anything better to do at lunchtime than harass random freshmen then i’d say they’re the ones that need to re-evaluate their life choices. you really wanna take greek mythology but are scared to death because you won’t have any friends in the class?? you know what. that’s okay too. if you are really dead-set on taking the course than of course you can!!! don’t let anyone stop you. but if you have anxiety and are afraid of being all alone in a class like that, don’t push yourself. TRUST ME, it’s not a good idea.
i nearly cried on my first day of 9th grade. i broke down sobbing in a grocery store later on that day because i was so scared i wasn’t going to make it through school. it was all so overwhelming. the amount of work thrown my way was more than i’d ever had to do before and i seriously just wanted to run away. i actually was so depressed that i hurt myself and lied to my parents about it.
and that’s where my last bit of advice comes in: online schooling. PLEASE, PLEASE consider homeschooling if you have a severe anxiety/depressive disorder. really. it is SO much easier to control and manage than regular high school. i know there are a lot of questions and fears about how different it can be and how hard it would be to do but really. it’s not at all hard. in fact it took a HUGE load of stress off my mind. i no longer had to worry about having lunch money, what clothes i had to wear, getting up and ready on time, finding a decent seat on an over-crowded bus, or bullying. that’s right: NO BULLYING. i have not had to put up with a single bully AT ALL in my time in online school. no one cares what clothes you wear, how you look, what you like, what you do in your free time. because most people are there for the same reason you are: to have an easier school life. now, that doesn’t mean that online school is easier in terms of the information taught. it is the same as regular high schools in that matter. BUT that also means that whether you went to an online or brick and mortar school won’t matter in college apps!!! you still aiming to get to that fancy expensive college on a scholarship??? keep going for it!!! it’s still very possible in online school.
plus, most tests are mostly multiple choice (for me at least, in the K12 curriculum) and are entirely completed on the computer!! and being able to have access to more material, your school will usually have many more options for extra classes (including language classes B))) ) including more computer-oriented classes, which are INCREDIBLY helpful if you’re like me and love technology and would like to follow a career in the area. would you be able to take a class in video game design in 10th grade in your current high school?? probably not.
of course, there ARE some drawbacks. if you are not actively seeking help for your problems, going into online school can allow for them to get even worse. i actually have a lot more going on than anxiety and depression but i only found that out AFTER i switched to online school. i am a lot less stressed and it’s easier and more fun to participate in school but it’s not doing anything to really help my social anxiety or my motivation to do things OFF of the computer. but i still feel like it is a lot more manageable than how i would be in my public high school.
but another important piece of advice: do your best, but do NOT let that be an excuse to be lazy. of course, everyone gets tired and lazy towards the end of the year. i was unprepared for that and procrastinated to shIT and that came back to bite me in the ass when i only had 3 days left to get everything in. just try to AT LEAST get your work in by the latest deadline if it is stressing you out. believe me, it will be a lot worse if you wait too long.
i see a lot of those “freshman advice”things being written by people who are now juniors or seniors. this is coming from someone that is just starting 10th this year. i’m just trying to give advice based on my experiences for anyone going through similar problems.
Heh, I play the cello, I’ll bet this is an interesting article.
Jesus fucking christ dont get me started on moving the damn thing
They cause die
Me. Thats me.
Motherfucker you wanna play
i have to wonder if it would have just been best to not tell you about the article lol